Where is He?

Where is he? Im sitting here waiting, looking at the sky, my phone, the trees, the birds, the wind. But where could he be? He says he is always there for me, says he knows what im saying, says he feels what i feel. I mean, how could he not know? I tell him everything and I thought he was listening, but maybe this lack of his presence is because he never heard the words coming out of my heart. Besides that, I have been waiting. I told him to meet me at our spot on the beach but he never showed. HE NEVER SHOWED. I was left alone, all alone. And not just alone physically, but alone in my thoughts.

I had so much to tell him, so much to explain, so much to ask. I dont know why but everytime I talk to him, he eleviates me. I feel as though he takes my problems from me, I feel as though he knows exactly what I feel. But where is he now? With all this pain you would think that he would know to come, not leave me alone. Is this so I know how much he really means to me? I already know. When im with him I feel as though the darkest night is as bright as the sun. When I hear his breath I feel a bit of it giving me life. When he walks next to me, I feel invincible. So why on earth would he leave me like this? Alone, afraid, scared, and tired?

I lift up my eyes and see the sky, the birds, but he is not coming up in the horizon. I look up and see my phone, it is not ringing; I look at the trees blowing in the wind and begin to feel more alone in this world.

And right when I give up looking for him, I lay down and close my eyes. I can not tell you the amount of tears I cry of the fear I feel, but I hope that this is only for a time. Just as I open my eyes I see him. I see him in the sky, in the birds, in the trees, and in the wind. then, and only then, I realize that he never left me. HE NEVER LEFT ME.